Friday, May 15, 2020 :::
This blog still exists! I don't even blog anymore!
20six is long defunct. There is an archive on https://web.archive.org/web/20041109090903/http://www.20six.co.uk/psydude/
That chunk from 11/03-07/04 is pretty hard to navigate, but tbh my early high school years were pretty cringy. Even my LJ now is pretty cringy, but it's still updated semi-monthly! https://psydude.livejournal.com/
Wednesday, July 02, 2003 :::
In case if you cant see, i'm feeling very Kawaii (why the hell is that a mood? I dunno, but it describes how im feeling). Josh n' Tina seem to think so.
Robert and Josh spent the night again, and now again. Last night, we went on a trip to the movies.
Ku picked us up, and the car was already full as it is, but he decided to bring his sister and her friend too. It was me, Robert, Josh, Ku's sister and her friend, Ku, Lex, Me, and Tina. Me and Tina discovered how to walk in public, and then we commenced to proceed to the theatre. We ended up in Charlie's Angels, which wasnt a very good movie, but fortunately, easy to make fun of. Tina suggested that we put the armrest up, but wanted to wait until it was dark, dispite her anxiousness. There were way too many plot holes, and me n' Tina had the armrest betwen us up and were just sitting there pointing out stuff and laughing at the holes. Ku and Lex, To Tina's left, were very loud. I couldnt tell if they were making out or not, but me and Tina didnt, I had no urge to. I wanted to reach over and hit them, but i couldnt reach. I like going to the movies with Tina, that was very fun.
After the movie, I walked around the whole time with my hands around Tina's waist, as she had hers on top of mine and just insisted on dragging me. I dont think we seperated at all... after Ku's dad FINALLY CAME ( he was very late), I walked Tina home. I returned to my house, and we watched a movie, then slept.
I was awoken in the morning to a phone call- Kai. She visited, and god only knows what her and Robert did in the bedroom. From there, we quickly whipped out a plan for a Chinatown Trip, Tina was supposed to go, but she ended up that she couldnt. Kai wasnt supposed to go, but it ended up she could. Jennifer drove, and it was me, Josh, Jas and Robbie in the back of the car, squished really badly. Robert and Kai were in the front.
Something I noticed but didnt want to point out about the car: The rear shocks were REALLY far down, and sometimes when we hit a bump, the car would scrape the tires. I noticed it before too, in another car, where we squished ppl in. I cant wait till I start driving...
We got there, and didnt do much. DDR, I OWNED Jas on DDR and Tied robert., I brought an extra shirt, which i left at the table after i got some food. I wish Tina coulda been there...
From there, we got some Tapioka (Passion Fruit Cream Shake is REALLY GOOD =P), and browsed the shops. Video store, Little Surprises...
Ah who'm I kidding, all i did was miss Tina the whole time. I wish she coulda been there...
We came home... I didnt get anythign except some Yam Yams and a bouncy ball. Yum Yam Yams are good... i like them.
When I took a shower earlier, everything I did with Tina came by in such a rush... I dont know if thats a bad or a good thing, but I liked it. It feels so natural, but yet I cant believe its happening once I think about it. I like it...
I like things the way they are. If it was 'better that way' before, then its definately best this way. I cant wait till we can get more time to hang out together, being with her is so fun.
Tuesday, July 01, 2003 :::
Just a quick note:
The orogins of the e-mail described two or three posts down is still unknown. It was not Tina, nor Katherine (either of them), not Josh, not Matt.
Pure bliss would be one way to describe it.
Tina came back, and threw me into a panic around 4:50, when i woke up to find that she had just logged off AIM ten minutes prior. I frantically picked up my phone and dialed; just to find she was leaving and on her way.
She came at 5, and we hung out upstairs, my parents just not minding us downstairs, which created a few giggles. Some friends came over around 7, and it turned into a party. Robert, Josh arrived at 7, whenwhich Craig followed shortly after, then Jennifer was demanded over by both Tina and Josh, so it ended up being nothing short of a Yaoi-fest, even after Craig left... I just held onto Tina and waited for their "Yaoi talk" to cease, whenwhich (new word) we ordered Pizza.
I was sitting on the couch with Tina, too lazy to get up, so Jennifer and Josh took it upon their will, interimly (another new word) answering my constant IMs, which I have learned to ignore while Tina is over.
Tina and Jennifer left fairly late, around eleven, due to my begging that Tina stay for "just a while longer", but when her parents called at 10:50 i let her go.
I read the notes Tina gave me, to please the nosy, its nothing but descriptions of oddities on her trip, and the occasional mushy-mushy. From then, the white Scott decided that he knew that Tina was over, and insisted that between the hours of 9 and 10 we were 'doing you-know-what'. That was not only funny as hell, but also very ironic since I got Josh to talk for me, he was there since seven and I had been talking to him the whole time- what could I have done? Captain Oblivious strikes yet again...
I havent slept yet, and all thats been whiring through my mind is Tina- why am I so comfortable around her? I dont know, its the first time for both of us, but it seems so natural, as if ive been with her all my life. I guess thats what they call it.
Im supposed to meet Sherry today, finally, and im dragging Tina along, forcefully, to Chinatown, assuming Jas pulls it together wednesday.
I tested my DDR skills on Robert's PS2 and pad- I can pass every 8 step song I tried with a B, with the exception of Midnite Blaze- a C. I am detirmined to pass Twilight Zone, i know if i play it only three more times Im sure ill be able to get it- Its not that hard of a Cata. However, if what Tina says is true- that Sherry can pass So Deep- I'm screwed.
Sunday, June 29, 2003 :::
I just woke up... from a dream.
It was the first time ive ever dreamt like this... Ive never dreamt of Tina, save a few times, but espically not recently.
Just now, I did. I had a dream, that was a jarbled mess. All I wanted to do was be with Tina, and she was there, by my side, but Robert and Kai kept running into rooms and locking themselves, and Tina kept pestering them to get out... All I wanted was for her to just come back to the game room with me. Also, while this was happening, a chat log was running through my head.
"You lost the message? How the hell could you lose it?" "I dont know! It just popped up!" "Where the hell did it go? It was on the computer, it didnt just dissapear!" "I dont know sir!" "How the hell can you not know?! You're the one who clicked it!"
The whole time, it was Panic, fear, relaxation... I was with Tina at the begining, and it was pure bliss, just being beside eachother, and then it was panic and confusion as Robert and Kai kept running around switching rooms and locking them...
I'll fly with you.
Saturday, June 28, 2003 :::
I went to a LAN party earlier, where I owned at Starcraft then got my ass kicked at Counter-strike. Only fair, ive been playing the former for a while,
But thats not the point. I just got a weird spam e-mail. It starts out like this: Hello Toddie Oakes,
bubbly bubbly -betchawishyaknew@hotmail.com- has sent you a "help you" card from
http://www.imood.net. It then gives me a link to Pick Up the card. In it is a very weird picture that looks like it was drawn in paint, and a message.
The Picture is one big pink blog with a yellow and green head, four feet, and it looks like two people hugging. And as for the message,
To Toddie Oakes,
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
From,
bubbly bubbly Theres very few people with that writing style, and even fewer who would call me Toddie. Im going to guess Tina, since shes the only one who would write those words, but i doubt thats right. Its description tells me
A "help you" card is a card sent to someone who needs to be heard by a
loved one, and Josh has been complaining to me how Im going crazy, but i dont really care. Come to think of it....
It could be anyone, but still those words sound like Tina's... or maybe its just me.
I'll fly with you.
4:36 Sunday, 6/29 edit: the four I supposed, excluding Tina, have all denied it. Shes the only one left.
Friday, June 27, 2003 :::
"Holy crap, did you lose weight in your sleep?" Jordan exclaimed.
Yesterday, Thursday, at 10:20, Kai and Robert decided to wake me up before they came over. at 11:20, they finally arrived.
We met up with Jas, made a visit to Chic-Fil-A, brought something back for Herb, then about 2:30 we got dropped off at mountasia.
From there the nostalgia continued as my thoughts revolved around what Ive been trying to keep my ming off of, and I played several rounds of DDR. I was very sweaty, and then we went to the mall, where they promptly ditched me at gamestop. I didnt notice till I was $1 short of Saga Frontier II, so I got the origional instead. After reading the reviews, i dont know... I might return it.
We met back up with Chase at Mountasia, and played some more DDR. Damned Robert passed Twilight zone... im next. I got really close to passing it... That and Sakura on Oni.
We ate at Pepper Chino's, where the nostalgia factor flew up again. I wish Tina woulda been there...
Then we went to see a movie, The Italian Job. Kick ass movie. Yet again, the nostalgia was skyrocketing halfway through the movie, espicallly when half the movie theatre was asleep (it was a 10:10 showing) and I was the only one laughing.
We went back to Chase's, where Robert fell asleep, and me, Jordan, and Chase Asshatted him while Scott (asian) watched Family guy.
We fell asleep around 3:30-4:30, and woke up around 1 (tho i was awake since 11:30). I had many weird dreams, involving animals, which i can only recall one scene where I was near where i am right now, but everything was much bigger, and this one kid trained a squirrel to bring him nuts, and nuts for the squirrel too.. he named him Chihiro... then i woke up and said to my self, "Tina, i wish you were here, i miss you", and im still boggeled how a squirrel named Chihiro reminded me of Tina...
But besides that, I had Pancakes, and Jordan noticed what I noticed earlier, "Holy shit, did you just lose weight overnight?!"
Yeah... if i was an A cup before, im definately a AA now. So much for cross-dressing.
I wonder if Tina will be changed when she comes back... i wonder if she'll notice ive changed. She might be more Tanned, maybe lost a lil weight herself... I cant wait.
The internet seems stable now. Im gonna have to do something with Josh and Jennifer this weekend. Im going to finish Love hina volume 9 then mow the lawn, there might be a party later.
I'll fly with you
Thursday, June 26, 2003 :::
Ah ha ha, my internet is UP, but blogger isnt, so the date is Wed, 6/25/03 at 11:00PM
Blah.
Internet was out this morning, so i read two whole volumes of the Love Hina manga, back to back. The feeling of nostalgia is starting to go away as the new characters are introduced. Im sure once Keitaru gets back onto Naru it will become more nostalgic.
Today, I was forced to walk to Ku's house, where I met up with Lex at the door, we pushed Ku and Jas into the car, and off to mountasia. I played alot of DDR, 1 round with Chase, who we managed to find there. And the other four rounds i played with this one girl, whom ive never seen before, I think Christy was her name. Shes kinda cute, but came with her "friend" (I say boyfriend) and was much too short for me.... She whomped me on alot of songs, but i got my revenge on A, R3 (the second time we played it), and some other song. We were both really tired by the end (as Lex put it, I looked like a "sponge"), and departed mountasia at the same time. I left and went home with chase, after we dropped Ku and Lex off at the mall.
They refused to leave us, but as I put it, "If i were with Tina, id be joyous to take the oppertunity", and Jas related and agreed, "I would too!". So, we convinced them to go.
I got home, and the internet has been off and on. I think its having a fit.
Tuesday, June 24, 2003 ::: Edit: Pardon my stupidity, i should have researched latin roots. "a" on "apathetic" means "without". Forgive me, and please dont kill me Kai for being an ingoramous =P As for more boring randomness:
Ive always wondered, why are the words apathetic and indifferent spelled so much like words that have no similar meaning? They both mean having little or no interest or concern and I interchange them often out of astheticness.
Indifference has many more meanings in itself, most of them summarized by marked by impartiality or that does not matter one way or the other. It is used for both meanings often. However, it is spelled alot like different, which means partly or totally unlike in nature, form, or quality or not the same: as, or most importantly, unusual.
Apathetic is spelled like pathetic, yet the latter means having a capacity to move one to either compassionate or contemptuous pity. However, also according to Merriam-Webster, pathetic can mean marked by sorrow or melancholy.
It can be argued that people who are indifferent may be unusual, as their mind is not made up, and if the choice appears, they cannot take either path without making up their mind. People who are apathetic are said to be withoutmarked by sorrow or melancholy, but i have never seen an apathetic person in bliss, and I dont think im alone out there, so the opposite sure isnt true And, as I know well, people who are apatheic often have other people wanting them to make up their mind, in essence, they are not withoutmove one to either compassionate or contemptuous pity.
So, although the words are spelled differently, and have completely different meanings, often the indifferent are different at heart, and the apathetic, most often, not without pathetic [read: pity].
