Sunday, September 22, 2002 :::
Im sorry for not posting. I guess its pretty important.
Nothing changed. I thought Jordan would be pissed at me, but he talked freely, and when brought up, he said "It's cool".
And as for Katherine, nothings changed.
Except the fact I cant get her out of my head. No, before, she may have been my only fantasy, but now its like whenever i close my eyes shes there. I had several dreams involving her...
Im scared.
Monday, September 16, 2002 :::
Okay lets make this simple.
My life is boring. Read my profile on AIM (i'm WinToilet). It deals with the ignorant.
Well, now what that's over with, if you're still reading, you must want the juicy stuff. Well here it is.
English, i still havent done my homework. We did work all period. Oh well. Boring.
Biology, well... uhh... why cant i remember my day?! Wait.... its coming backkk..... yeah, we did nothing.
Geometry, we did 2d-to-3d shapes. I suck at it, but ill get better.
Lunch... more talk on an anime club. I wonder when it will start? I really am anxious to go to the first meeting!!!!! It better not be on a tuesday tho... Friday's good!
Spanish. Me, Katherine, and Jordan carried on a big conversation half the period. Parts of it included "Stupid stuff" (when you say something, and no one responds, because its stupid). Aparenly Katherine spends 1/6th of her day sleeping, 3/6ths saying "Stupid Stuff", and the other 2/6 are on "other stuff", like drawing and well listening to this band she recoomended. "Der En Grey", its a japanese punk band. I like Jpop, (i inclide PopRock as just Pop, so i guess Jpop to me also ='s Jrock), so i checked it out. DO NOT DOWNLOAD THEIR SONGS. They suck crap! If you want anything like that, download from "Nightwish", "Iced Earth", "Lost Horizon", or "Arjen Anthony Lucassen's Star One" (Star One for short). I HAVE tio reccomend these to her... cuz frankly... her bands suck ass. I declined to respond when she inquired "which band?" because frankly, i dont know who does "Change The World", the theme to InuYasha. I think its V6? But that doesnt sound right, so whatever.
Geography... well... lets just say we had a test. Went to the bathroom, and took too long, and when walking by the office i fiddled with a pen in my pocket, was looking down, and looked real nervous (like i planted a bomb and was handling the detonator). I hope i got a laugh =)
Orchestrai (new word) (Orchestra): I come on and someones saying "Where'd you get the goldfish?" I look: theres goldfish in my slot. I grab them and hide them in my backpack.
Why? Its a practical joke by the seniors that woke me up with silly string and took me to the Orhcestra social. Get it, Fish? Hah.... Well they got eaten =) Only Origional, but still Yummy in my Tummy!!!
Ugh im not gonna use that phrase again.
Arjen Anthony Lucassen's Star One.
Friday, September 13, 2002 :::
Well i only write when things get interesting, and not enough interesting things have accumulated until now.
Sidenote before i begin: Im not going to mention my extending limited (aquantinces) female affairs. They have gotten too large, and explaining them all in my blog proves impractical.
Lets start from the begining.
English, things have been unfolding nicely. My relations cant deprove any, so i guess im going up. Katherine has continued to talk to me, as if im her only friend. Well, in that class, i am. So i guess im right. Britany (One person i also knew in 7th grade, however, have not noticed at all again till now) is now engaging in conversations between Katherine and myself.
Biology, i cant get out of the Chris and Issac. I dont mind Chris, hes okay, we used to trade Pokemon back in the 5th grade, but i dont really want to associate with him much. And as for Issac, well, i just dont like him. His voice is annoying, his interjecting is all wrong and off, and his constant silent victory dances annoy me. However some "Jocks" in there are pretty cool, but I'm too shy and lazy.
Geometry. My teacher makes me SOOO MAAAADDDD!D!!!! She sucks at explaining things, never teaches, and makes us copy the problem out of the book! Diagrams, all sentences, it is ANOOYING! We complained today after lunch and she heard us when she was DOWN THE HALL!!! EEEVVVVIIIILLLL!!!! (One person mentioned she is the Evil Reincarnation of the Devil. I was about to comment on watching what you say, and thats a little too strong and over-exaturated. Well good thing i didnt, cuz that person was right.)
Kevin stamped me as a loser. Like i give a shit about his feminine ass.
Lunch: Really extremely odd. Starting from the line, there was a person between me and my friend in the line. Right as my friend exits, the guy in front of me steps up, and right before he starts to type in his pin (You have to use it, even if paying cash), a fag named "Johnathon Whiles" cut in line and put his number in. I told him "You're lucky i didnt beat your ass right here on the spot, asshole." As he exited (thankfully he didnt take too long), he commented "Have a nice day!"
After i got my food i went to get a drink. As i came back, i was looking to see if Jordan sat next to Katherine or not. Katherine was nowhere near her normal spot, so i stalled and looked closer.
Nothing. So i continued to my seat, and lo and behold, her and 2 of her friends (Everyone but Tiffany) was sitting to the far right of my and my friends. I then looked front right: Jordan. We all sat in a triangle and never spoke to one another. Im almost positive i was the only one who noticed! I also noticed the fags who throw food (who sit in front of me) said something, not about us, but something like "Yeah, hes a fag", or something i noticed real well but wasnt directed toward me.
My friends even mentioned Homecoming, which is coming up. I didnt know there was a dance that went along with it! DOH (gets hit from behind) OWW!.
Now for katherine. I wouldnt dedicate a special section to her usually, but this deserves it. She wore her all out black today. Her black goth pants (with all the useless buckles everwhere), her big boots (that smell like meat, under her pants (the smell wore away later)), and her tight black shirt. She even did some odd things- Laced her hair with some red ribbons (its all Poofy) and Wore dark lipstick- something she never does. Whether or not she wore other makeup is unknown to me- i didnt know Akina wore maskara until someone pointed out it was rubbing off on the side of her eye 6th period, but more on that later. My point- My eyes are not as sharp as my ears.
Spanish: Jordan (the guy who sits behind Katherine) and her talked about just the whole period. I talked very little. We sung, or rather, i sung with the class and the people behind me carried on a conversation. I told Katherine her voice cant be that bad- she just blows it off "Yeah, but i dont like it".
Jordan stole Bunky at the end of class (Katherines "Sewn together" cat, which she always has) like he always does, and it took forever for Katherine to catch up to us. I explained myself as "having a weak will" and "everybody's friend", as i really want to estabolish that image toward her. I want her to know its hard for me to admit my feelings, but am friendly toward almost anybody willing to be friendly to me.
Geography: we watched a video on killer whales. Used it to catch up on some sleep.
Orchestra: We split into our "Chamber Music" groups. Its basically just ensembles. Mine was the hardest piece- it included the bass. First violin: I am angered that i forgot her name. Shes Asian though. The Second Violin was Anastasia, a "Goth", who is really good at the Violin but really wants to quit. What a waste of talent. The Viola was Akina. I saw her going up the stairs and decided to make a little talk with her, the extent of our conversation was "Hi, What class are you going to now?" She was going to english. She also had a weird hair problem in orchestra. When she sat back, then sat up, her hair made a "crunching" sound, and asked me (and only me) "Can you hear that?" I only heard it the second time. Now that i think about it- maybe it was sticking to the chair and being pulled out. Odd, but whatever.
I was the cello. I practiced for over an hour, and still sucked. We got through it though. there was a cricket.
Sunday, September 08, 2002 :::
So, i'm supposed to answer all unanswered questions i left last time, right?
Well lets start with others. Klam, well, aparently has been going out with this Jennifer since middle of the summer. And... well... my little suspicion is that theyve been doing something else on the side. However, my purity rating on him hasnt decreased too much...
Now onto Purity. I dont feel it as some third force or anything. Not supernatural. I take their actions, words, and past together, and you get a purity rating. I cant do it on a scale, ive tried, but i cant. Its better off defining them as purer, as pure, or impurer than me.
Heres a couple for examples.
Lindsey is much more pure than me, but declining. Slowly. Too impossible- its hard to relate. Katherine is more pure, but not too much, and declining. Variably Its difficult, but not too hard to relate. Most of my male friends are a little less or a little more pure than me, fluctuating lower on the scale, but not by much at all. Kelvin is, or i thought was, about as pure as me. Hes rapidly declining.
Friday, id love to talk about it. First period, well after it, I talked to Katherine about exactly WHY she learned japaneese. Aparently she liked everything about japaneese culture, from music to movies. However, i cant get over why we havent discussed anime yet. I guess im just too stupid to bring it up, its obvious she's seen some.
I hurt my ankle third period. I limped around to my classes the rest of the day. I still limp.
Lets get onto Adult Swim. It was really interesting tonight.
InoYasha showed its second (dubbed) spisode. Kagome (Kah-Goh-May) was required to guard the crystal. Inuyasha got a necklace that bound him, whenever the command "Sit boy" was given. The crystal was shattered at the end of the episode.
Yuyu Hakusho- rerun. Body saved from burning house, yada yada.
Cowboy Bebop- This episode makes me want the DVDs. Boogie Woogie Fung Shui. In it, Jet meets a doughter of an old friend, and has to find the "Sun stone" to get back to his old friend. In the end, the old friend ends up dieing. The episode is really specific on everything, explaining Fung Shui and all.
Gundam 0083- Wish i payed more attention. Both gundam 1+2 were destroyed, and Nina and Ko are going for gundam 3. Nina wants to go back to earth- and wants Ko to go with her.
MS Gundam- Boring. Amaroe had a fit.
Outlaw Star- Discovered the Galactic ruins. Lots of talking, particuarly between Harry McDougal and Melfina.
in each episode there is a point given, or a theme emphasized.
In Inuyasha, two points are stressed. Always be prepared for the worst, and a theme is estabolished- the hunt for the pieces of a greater whole. Other anime ive seen based on this theme: Dragonball (Z/GT), CardCaptor Sakura, and losely G Gundam (defeating all the fighters, as opposed to finding all the objects). Its a basic plotline with alot of room for expansion.
Yuyu Hakusho- Good girls fall for bad boys.
Cowboy Bebop- Tenseness gets you nowhere. Be flexible, like water.
Gundam 0083: Anger as a primary driving force will always result in a defeat (which stressed the above even further)
MS Gundam: Be mature.
Outlaw star: Always chase your dreams. Even if something gets in the way, like depetion of funds, always chase your dreams. They will come true.
And, the answer is,
Yes.
Tuesday, September 03, 2002 ::: Slashdot: News for nerds, stuff that matters When someone blurts out a totally unrelated sentence, what do you do?
Well, i can tell about my day. Not like you're looking for anything else while reading this.
I posted, last friday, that Katherine avoided me the whole dance. I am almost certain this was no coincidence, but however the conversation may have been. Maybe she honestly DIDNT want to dance with me? Confusing as i find it....
Also, on the subject of the dance, i forgot to mention where Katherine has gotten what goth influance she has from. Ariel. In 7th grade, she got into a fight and went to the annex. I heard nothing of her till i saw her hanging out with katherine- As for a description, well, shes not a full out goth, but shes a girl that would be willing to get tatoos. I truely think Katherine doesnt know what shes getting herself into, and the only solutions i can find is to somehow make Ariel look bad. That would mean getting her angry at me, and provolking her into a fight. Is that even possible? And how the hell can i not fight back? Thats really hard. And as for making Ariel look bad, all i'll get is self-defence. She'll just either push her closer, push me farther, or both at once. NOT a solution.
One that i would NEVER consider, is killing her. No way, im no hitman.
And coming to today, what brought me to the conclusion i said above? Well, today, in english (1st period), we watched star wars (the end of it). I didnt pay much attention to Katherine- i wasnt sure what she thought of me. After the quiz (which came next), she was still taking it. I took note of the Doll on her desk- how and why? I was searchign it for a camera, but couldnt find any equipment on it. It was patched up- but obviously for design and not repair. Finally, after she finished her quiz, she went back to her seat and positioned herself to look at me (as if engage in conversation). She turned around- I had nothing to say. The quiz was still going on, and i didnt feel like being yelled at. So she turned her doll towards me and just stared into my eyes. What am i supposed to do? I cant be serious like that! I laughed. She couldnt keep straight either- she laughed too. We did that about three times over, till the teacher made us copy vocab. After that, class was over. I took careful note of her hair style. The hair was clipped behind her ears then tied into a ponystail style. However, her hair isnt straight, its frizzy. And long, past her shoulders. It remided me of something... I bet from some anime, but i cant put my finger on which. Im gonna do some research.
Keeping in order of the day, and on a totally unrelated subject to my life, i saw an old friend of mine after orchestra, i believe it was on thursday. Kelvin, which me and my friends call Klam (it combines with his last name). I asked why he was there, and he responded to see Jennifer, one of Akina's friends. Viola players. Well anyway, i saw them well, licking eachother's noses at lunch. I find it beyond amazing a pirate geek like Klam could not only get a hot asian girlfriend (hes asian himself), but also be beyond that stage. Charm? Luck? Whatever.
And onto fifth period, i not only saw Tiffany acknolege my existance, but also passed right next to her. No words were exchanged- no need. She obviously doesnt even know my name, so what reason is there to talk? We no nothing about eachother, and also, she was walking and there was a guy next to her. Now i doubt he was with her, but all the same.
My point in all this: Its not that I didnt do anything, its that I COULDNT do anything.
Over and out.
