Sunday, May 26, 2002 :::
In memory of Chuck, my pet guinea pig.
He almost turned 5, if only he would have hung in there just one and a half more months.
Chuck:
July 4, 1997(Estimated)- May 26, 2002
He had a good life. He died of cancer, evident because of a tumor on his rear end. I will never bed with pine shavings again.
Friday, May 24, 2002 :::
Well.... What can I say...
I cant stop dreaming about Katherine. Her body and hair felt so nice against mine. I am re-considerign asking her out. After all... summer school.. im sure she's going.
And ive leaned why i wont let myself spend the night another guy's house (or let them here). Its my social (or devoid of one) life. I have had my social fill, and I just feel more comfortable at home for some reason. I am weird...
Can't wait till summer school.
Dont compare yourself to others, espically me. You'll find out they're more messed up than you think.
Thursday, May 23, 2002 ::: The Onion | America's Finest News Source Well, today many things happened. To be honest, im not sure what to make of some of it.
I guess I'll start from the begining.
First and Second period were the awards ceremony. I got the "Most outstanding boy Nominee" award, but was not a finalist or winner.
Good news! I found out "Ayla"'s name! Its Tiffany. Woohoo, right? None of my friends know her.
Third period was orchestra. I did not talk to Heather, but she did not seem any more hostile toward me. Shes nice, but for now all I can do is stare. I ate at B lunch (I normally eat at C), and it was okay. Most of my friends were there.
Fourth period we read our thingys. Legends. Mine was about Ozzy Osbourne biting off a chicken's head. I got the least applause.
Fifth period we all sat there bored. Almost trough it we went to the
DANCE!
They played many songs. No techno =(. But, alot of good Disco =). I danced and had fun the whole time, durign the first 2 slow songs just standing around. I had much fun, learning a new good dance (more than one). I got thirsty most throug, and they ran outa cola. I pooped. No, actually, I was pooped. I couldn't hold on much longer, I was sweatign like a hog. That was near the end.
Then my dream came true. I finally danced with Katherine! She looked beautiful today.
How dod this happen? No, it was actually on on my side. I prayed to god last night for me to lose myself, and it looks like he listened. I totally lost myself, though I did not lose my identity like I hoped.
I first, earlier than I danced with her, why she was alone. I was wonderign for a while, aparently she was "Looking for her group", who I recognized kept splitting. Wonder why...
I was hanging out with the group closest to the DJ, which was probibly the most entertaining "circle". Well, after a while Kathrine was alonwe again. I thought my chances with her were 0, because she wouldnt even dance with Isaac (of whom i think she prefers more). So, the second time, I told her that she needed to hang out with someone, and said "If you dont find someone, you can hang out with us," pointed to the group I was with, and waved. The third time, was during the last dance (she never came to me... I dont blame her). I asked her "You saving this for anyone?"
"No..."
"Would you like to..." I made hand gestures.
"Sure". She insisted on spinning though, but other than that, It was heaven. She also complained I was too tall. Dont blame her, she isnt exactly the tallest girl in the school. Me being one of the tallest, well...
After the dance a thought passed my mind. Well, actually 3. One, this guy I was hangging with, wanted to call me. So i gave him my name, and he's gonan call me sometime or another. Second was Lindsey... Will she pick me up? Id liek to go sunday.
The third is, I would liek to ask Katherine out. But, once I got home, I remembered my previous call. She has caller ID. She uses it good. I'll never get thorugh without arising suspicions, either by her or her dad (who will probibly remember me...) would get curious and it would all be shot down. Well... there comes into play Isaac.
I could just go to Isaac's, who's brother is friends with Katherine, and maybe get some talkin in there.
And here lies the ends. Im out of ideas.
Wednesday, May 22, 2002 :::
I feel much better.
I at least talked to Heather. Or rather, it was an Autograph party, and I got her to sign mine. I thought she'd think of me as a stalker or weirdo, but she told me:
"Hey!
Orchestra was fun this year!
C ya later!
Heather"
I feel bad now. I know for a fact she didnt enjoy orchestra (im a starer, remember? I could tell sometimes she was just fed up with Ms. webb).
Why do I feel bad? Because I told her:
"Would like to get to know you better.
HAGS (Have a great summer) -Todd"
I signed with my last name, but I dont post last names here. I feel bad...
Tuesday, May 21, 2002 :::
I could write about every detail of my life. But, instead, I'll go through my day then point ojut miscelanious things later.
Yesterday I had nothing to do. I came home, watched tv, got dressed and went to my concert. After it I ate at Arbys and re-inmstalled Tribes 2, playing it a bit. I wanted to see Lindsey there, but she wasn't. I wasnt expecting her to go, after all, it sucked cept for the symphony's music (the level i'm in).
Today:
1st period: Lindsey wasnt there. We did geometry constructions. What fun. Cleaned out lockers. Threw all my shiznit away.
2nd period: Stupid film. Stared at girls most period.
3rd period: Sightread a song "I will follow him" from Sister Act. It sounded familiar... but was xtremely easy. Would have been very hard if i had sightread it half a year earlier.
4th period:Watched a dumb film in science about the space race. Answered a worksheet, stared at girls most period.
Lunch: Choir came back. Locks turned in. Got a buck.
5th period: Watched some Scooby Doo. I personally would not voletarily turn to CN to watch it, but it wasnt as bad as the powerpuff girls, at least.
6th period: Played bingo. Yesterday we learned the Petrite (pasT) forms of verbs.
7th period: Finished most of "Remember The Titans"
Now, for the part I hate.
I have a pet guinea pig. His name is Chuck. About 4 months ago, we found a tumor on his hiney. He is almost 6 years old I believe. Now, he will barely eat. He only eats when i give him food. He barely drinks. His cage is devoid of shit. I cried for him. He probibly got cancer, if he doesnt die of hunger, cancer will probibly kill him. I wish he would at least eat. He's gettign thin. If he does die, I will most certanly buy another one, but Chuck will never be replaced. I will refrain from posting about him again until he actually passes away.
On the lighterside (or not), Ive pretty much fallen in love with Katherine again. Im a love fool. Isnt there a song... err... nm im thinking bout Love Foolosiphy by Jamiroquai. Well, I promised myself I'd never give this out, buto ne night i just let out all my pent up emotions and uploaded it. Im NOT going to link to it, but if by any chance you want to read about these people, enter my site and add "ph.html" to the end of it. DO NOT go to it if you know me personally, I have pretty much everyone in there. I will never update it, nor does it have a link anywhere. My god I cannot believe how beautiful Katherine is... Even Kelly is nice... My mind is warping.... I hope god will pity on me...
Sunday, May 19, 2002 ::: Amazon.com: Music Homepage Heres some background on the story none of you know about:
Pretext
I have some confessions about writing this.
I created the character, Kazamae and Miku, out of my mind. I then drew them and gave them each personalities. The very first presence of them is in the notes of a PowerPoint slide show I did for Science. In that, they were replaceable superheroes. Their final form was a white gothic freak and a black Amazon. I kept the gothic freak, gave him a tan, and made him look tougher. Miku I totally changed and made a gorgeous brunette. In their only portrait, Kazamae has an attitude and is grabbing Miku’s ponytail while she watches him and laughs. His hair is red and flying everywhere. He wears a white tank top and baggy brown sweatpants. Miku has a ponytail with some short hairs sticking up on top of her head. She has a very tight pink t-shirt on and tight orange jeans. Kazamae is barefoot while Miku has some brown hiking boots on. That is the outfit both of them appear in this story in, but Miku changes early on and continuously changes while Kazamae only changes once, and that time is into practically the same clothes. That is enough about their outfits.
Like I said, I created these characters as superheroes. In a not-yet-written story, the two meet in their third grade class, and copy what a pair of boys are doing, arm-wrestling. Miku wins, and Kazamae comes over to her house that weekend to have some fun. They end up doing nothing but fighting, and they become partners, always training. Miku’s mom caught drift in seventh grade, not letting Kazamae live with them like Miyu got to after HIS parents died also. He could not live in the house alone, so he ran off into a forest. He has no relatives, so he was not looked for. He went to school still, and was still good friends with Miku. She would occasionally go train with Kazamae, and in the previous two summers spent almost the entire summer with them. After 8th grade, the girl and boy combo were in a park near the forest, just talking, and got jumped by some really bad crooks trying to steak Miku’s purse. Miku kicked the first one almost to death in anger, and in an attempt to show off, Kazamae did the same with the crook’s partner. These were two famous crooks, and the van they drove had a lot of stolen equipment in it. None other than the mayor himself rewarded Kazamae and Miku for their efforts. After that, they took on several unimportant crooks, and a villain that threatened the whole country faced two summers later. They ended up beating him AND his army of androids, and became nationally recognized as real-life superheroes, especially for their age. Two more villains again threatened country, and they defeated both. Then the evil mage, Camínroe, was the first worldly threat this duo faced. They beat him and his army of slaves, but had to learn a few power tricks of their own to do it. They both learned flying from Camínoe’s own description of how to do it, much to his distress. Kazamae ended finishing most of the army and won in a one on one duel between him and Camínroe himself. That summer was the first Miku spent the whole summer training with Kazamae, and there were no major threats until the time space this takes place in. Miku let herself rest for the last month, and in the beginning of their senior year at High School, Miku trained Miyu. Of course Miku was nowhere near her maximum, and took it very easy. After 2 months, Miyu and Miku stopped training, and Miku started training every weekend with Kazamae. Three weeks prior to this story, Kazamae wanted some time alone, so they stopped training. Kazamae still showed up to school, but did nothing but meditate, training his mind. At present time, Both Kazamae and Miku are of about equal strength, and a match would prove a close win. Kazamae’s meditation is the only thing that keeps it even, because Miku is naturally more talented with control, and grows quickly in mind-power as Kazamae takes a little training to get it right.
That being said, Kazamae is of course naturally ore talented than a normal girl, for he’s a guy. Guys grow in strength easily. But Miku is no ordinary girl, she grows in muscle strength very easily, at about a boys rate. So, that pretty much makes Kazamae an average guy, but very dedicated to his work. Miku is no everyday girl, she is very extraordinary in both her muscle power and mind-power, but also has a more-than-average potential to grow.
Some think of the following as a spoiler, so skip to intro if you don’t like spoilers.
As the story starts out, like said above, Kazamae and Miku are average strength. But, after this, Miku stops her training and becomes a Popular girl at school, dating many guys. However, Kazamae trains harder than ever, and Miyu with him to increase her newfound ability. Also later on, “Sound”, a mage and technological genius, builds a gravity machine that can magnify gravity up to 50x in a chamber, and soon has to boost it to 250x, then 500x. Then one day, Miku looks to talk to her friend, who is training with Kazamae. She goes into the forest, and faces an evil opponent. Kazamae takes care of the problem, but more come. Miku ends up training in the gravity chamber, which she conquers quickly. Then, Sound takes them to the Lookout, which looks over the earth, where they train in a chamber that slows time with gravity 200x that as earth. A year in there is one week on earth. As they train, Sound and Miyu have to fight off the new recruits for General _____’s army, who are soon joined by Ayla, who Sound has to escort to the gravity chamber, where she conquers in a day, then fights with Sound and Miyu until Kazamae and Miku return, where she enters the time chamber and splits to train against herself. Her split form is half as strong, but once re-combined, they are twice as strong as split. Once Ayla re-emerges, she defeats General _____‘s army easily where Kazamae and Miku failed. Then, the two mages and three fighters cannot kill Android General _____. So, Sound teaches Miyu a special technique that is so strong it requires two people, and they defeat him with it.
Plans for the future:
Kazamae and Miku marry, new force comes, Kazamae and Miku’s child gets involved, travel to another planet…
Once I think about it, take away the mages and this is remarkably like Dragon Ball Z.
Saturday, May 18, 2002 :::
I cannot say "Nervous" about tomarrow, but I really dont want to scare Lindsey off. Im going to hold my spiritual stuff to myself for now, which includes this site. Sorry, but I had to, If you are reading this.
The refrigerator episode: Toys in the Attic. Its about the mutant creature that came from the fridge and bites everyone except Spike. Spike kills it by putting the refrigerator into space. Its much cooler than it sounds. It was Ganymede rock Lobster.
Jet's Lesson #1: Man is meant to be a hard worker. Those who steal or "get rich quick" will live to regret it.
Faye's Lesson #2: Survival of the fittest.
Ed's Lesson #3: If you see a stranger, follow him.
Spike's Lesson #4: Don't Leave Things In The Fridge.
I've always wanted to record those. Figured now was a good time.
Boring... I cannot stand to watch beyond Goddess. This, is boring. Outlaw Star I got sick of, real quick Tenchi is good, but they should replace it with somethign better. These aren't the ONLY action anime out there. Theres others. Maybe they should try to get Neon Genesis Evangalion. That would be sweet. BTE, its pronounced Ev-anne-gale-ee-ohn, not Ev-anne-gel-ee-on or Ev-anne-ge-lion
P.S. I got two CD's today, proving the point I made below. One was "Simple Things", by Zero 7. Its a nice chill out album, not the typical energetic stuff im into. Ive always needed one of these. Find this in the "Rock/Pop" section. I consider it more R&B/Soul. I would not reccomend this if you bought either britney Spears's latest album or Ludacris's latest album, unless of course you are a really transitional person like me and listens to everything but country volentarily.
The other CD was "Since I Left You" by The Avalanches. Its a contemplation of samples put to simple beats. It is a great album, it feels like its all one song. I really love it because, once you get the lyrics (which can be pretty hard to understand at times, and get scratched occasionally, making them hard to reproduce), its VERY EASY to sing to it. Or hum it. Or whatever. It comes in a non-traditional "quake" like jewel case. I found this in the "Dance" section, but I consider it hard to dance to most of the songs. Very good CD otherwise. Also includes the very odd video to "Frontier Psychiatrist". Low-Budget High School Play-like atmosphere to it, and most samples sound like they're taken from a bunch of 60-80's western shows.
CDNOW Okay, I know this has been done a million and one times, but I am goign to write about digital music piracy.
People pirate music. It happens every second, but the fact is, does it actually recline music sales? I say NO.
I think it boosts music sales. Because, people find a good song off of the radio or TV, they download it. They might say, "Hey, this is good!", so they search for more songs by the artist, maybe burn a mixed CD with one of their songs on it. Once they get more songs, and they say "Hey! this artist kicks ass!", they'll go and buy the CD. That's what I believe.
I also believe that music sounds better when bought. It goes the same with movies, its just better quality.
But, my views wont change the music industry. They could give a shit less about me. But, I do have a solution.
It is easy to get a popular song off of KaZaA. Very easy. But, to get a whole cd and get the CDDB to recognize it is nearly impossible. So, then, theres only one solution.
Make it more low cost, and easier. I can type in "Prince" into KaZaA and get 20 great songs, each from a different album. But what if I only want them from one album? Sure, i could fill in the album field, but people who rip songs DO NOT fill in all fields acuatly. ESPICALLY the album field. So, instead of re-trying for hours, I could easily go online at the site listed at the top and buy Prince's "1999" album, and boom. I got all the songs I wanted. But, why pay $14.99 for somethign you can get, although hard, for free? Well, drop the price! I'll gladly pay $9.99 in two seconds instead of continue searchign and refining for eight hours. Its all in price and convience.
But, some peopel will NOT pay for CD's either they are broke or just ignorant. So, what do you have to do to get them to pay? This is it:
First, create a FREE file-swapping network that is EASIER to get songs than KaZaA (curently the easiest, in my opinion). Namely, by makign the album, artist, title, year, the wole ID3 tag more acurate. People will migrate over, and KaZaA will go out of buissness by lack of users.
Once KaZaA and all others have either been forgotten or are TOTALLY offline, start charging. Make it small, like $5.00 a month. Sorta like cable TV, but music only. Then, start charging more and more. $15 a month max is good.
Thursday, May 16, 2002 ::: Windows XP Professional Services 411 Kick ass site if you got XP, and if u got 2k, just go back, they got one for it also.
So, the ONLY big thing that happened today that didnt happen yesterday is that Lindsey asked me again. I should probibly just set up a weekly schedule with her.
Avid readers of this shit know what im talkin bout. Just look throught my archives is u got no clue.
I tried to save this for something important...
Nothing good happened today. Well... wait, im thinking...
Finals tomarrow first period.
Second period... test tomarrow.
Third period... AH there it is!
I stared at heather again. Its almost as if shes totally aware, but whenever she bumps ibnto me she says "sorry" as if we've never met.
Well....
Fourth Period... Nothing.... or... nope nothing.
Lunch... I had a bigger burger today. Costs a extra quarter, but, other than that, nothing.
Fifth period... nothing new.
Sixth period... Had finals.
Seventh... did homework.
So, I just remembered.
The thing i said about lindsey yesterday, you know what, i dont think it anymore. Shes just a friend. Im like any guy, I fantasize about any woman given enough time, but when im forced to make quick decisions (like normal speech), I talk as if shes any good friend. Just shes a female, so i have to limit how I talk about, well, women. And my cussing. Ergh!
So... what else...
I have Episode II on my comp, and as soon as my dad goes away, ill watch it.
My ear hurts when touched. I think its an infection
I sure hope Lindz is willing to pick me up each week, I really dont want my dad dropping me off (and I liek company).
And Ive realized I can go on and on, even when nothign happened in my day. What a day!
Tuesday, May 14, 2002 :::
P.S.
I just remembered. Last saturday night, they played the episode of cowboy bebop where jet revisits his past.
The girl he encounters says, "You always protected me. You always withdrew me from trouble, and you always guessed where it was. And, damnit, you were always right. All I ever wanted to do LIVE! Damnit, let me make my own decisions! Just for once, even if they are the wrong ones. Please?" all while pointing a gun at him. It just goes to show, being perfect does NOT pay off. If we were all perfect, none of us would "live". The world would be dull and boring. Sure we always fantasize about being perfect, but its like being in a 10 child famikly or an only child. In the former, you never get bored. But, you never get privacy, and you have to "share" almost everything. For the latter, you are always bored, you have nothing to share( you tend to get snobby), and you're in almost total privacy all the time, which tends to lead to wanting more, or being selfish, greedy. I guess that the former also has its bad side, but being a only child, i not know of it. If we were perfect, we'd fantasize about being unperfect. Then someone would act on the fantasy. The would would turn into anarchy. Its always nice to have a little law and order, but too much is just, well, too much.
Theres my view on government. C ya.
I just realized: Ive been comparign Lindsey with Kathrine. and the path is going the same. (All speaking from my side)
It started out as just "knowing" each other.
Then it becomes a quest for knowlege (Of her)
Then i scare her and she never speaks to me again.
Then I fall madly in love with her.
But... This hasnt taken the third stage yet. I haven't scared her yet... and although I talk (and look at) her alot, I still havent enveloped feelings for her. Cept the ones that come with me knowing every female (c'mon, im a guy. A thought passes my mind every once in a while.)
What would I catogorize her under? Fine arts obsessionist. BOTH her AND kathrine are interested, maybe obessed with, a fine art. With lindsey's case its Singing (she also plays piano, but she feels "forced" to do it. That means shes only obsessed with the vocals), and in Kathrines it was actual art. To finally get this out, Ive always wanted to start a band. If I ever got enough musicians (I need a lead instrument, all I can play is melody piano/flute and maybe lead cello, if there is such a thing), but I need more than just me and Lindsey (she would DEFINATELY be lead vocals). Im thinking more along the lines of something similar to Zero 7's music, Chill Out music. But, this time, instrumental instead of electronic. She would have to play the paino in some songs though, most chill out music does not have vocals in every song. Hell the ones that do, is sparse.
So... Ive covered that.... Maybe I should explain why I think the fourth step is coming.
I stared at her feet out of the corner of my eye. Oh big whoop, right? I do that with any girl i think is pretty (and bare footed).
And im re-thinking If i should give her this site. Maybe if/when she asks for any personal information (shes got my #, and my address, but i mean like online contact).
Ive covered all my thoughts for the day. Oh, and If you have ever liked anything but hard rock and rap, then check out Zero 7. Go buy their CD Simple things. I know I want to.
Monday, May 13, 2002 :::
Just something that ran through my mind:
Wow! We're friends! Im talkign about Lindsey. I just thought...
We may have only really "known" each other for 2 months, but we're friends. And not a thing more. I cannot really describe it, but theres nothing more than that.
Nothing happened today. Major spanish final tomarrow though.
But: I thought of a good theory.
Everybody firs in some type.
Call me a stereotype, but I catagorize everybody.
Check it out on my theories page. Also check out my newly updated uhh... whole site!.
I had much fun at the thing. I dont know what to call it, it started out with music. I hung out with Brent as Lindsey performed with the band (Consisting of two guitars, one of which sings, a drummer, a synth, and a backup singer, which was Lindsey. Should I give her this site? Im scared...
After that, they took us to the Choir room (Ive practiced cello in there before, so it was no suprise to me) where they related middle school life to the bible. It really made me reflect... They talked about ambushes... it was sort of odd. But it got a good point across. I feel so much purer... and well... shit thats the best church ive ever been to. I feel so pure...
I meant to post this origionally:
I reflected on my depression in 7th grade. That was a suck-ass time. I fell in love with Carolyn, and just totally pushed Kathrine to the side. I think shes never forgiven me for that. She still wont talk to me, least not for long. She doesnt care about me anymore, but i still care about her...
Thank god (I should probibly find another word, i use that too much) that I have taken the right path with Lindsey. I predict that we will become great friends over the summer.
Cowboy Bebop is my fav anime. Its good to know that I have Spikes eyes. Its so true. I try to be cool, on the down-low (read: shy). But sometimes I get a bit hotheaded. I rarely (never) reflect upon my real past with others. I havent endured a "real" test if I regaurd others above myself, but I like to believe I do. If it hurts a bit to give others immense pleasure (that can go any way), then I'm all for it. Have I died before though... It depends. Ive ungergone hell, both brought onto me by others, and myself. But, you dont have to die to go to hell, so I guess theres no definite answer to that.
Adult Swim ^^^ Waht I watch every satuday night (not sundays) ^^^
On it:
Yuyu Hakusho:
Kuwabara lost his battle against Rambo, and now its up to Yusuke.
Cowboy Bebop:
I wanted to see the refrigerator episode, but thats next week =)
But, this week, Jet found his long lost love, who was with a bounty. He let the 1.8 million go, but the cops got him.
Pilot Candidate:
Give me a sec...
Oh yeah! I wish they'd name the burnette nerd girl's name on the site, but least they got some main characters.
Zero's Goddess was re-calibrated by her last week, and This time they had to go out for a mission to help the real Goddesses.
When Zero got out, his jet reaction time was slow. So, when he got knocked by a weird bad guy, he almost fell into Zions gravity. After he recovered and they went in, Kizna took the blame for her.
Thats when I fell asleep.
Only one hour till.... im scared.
Saturday, May 11, 2002 :::
Well, got back from the party.
It was a crawfish festival.
Fun...
But is protecting your female cousin a crime? Maybe in my case, its notl ike i did her or anything. But I'm a little too concious about her.
Enough about my cousin.
Im REAL nervous about tomarrow. What will I be picked up in? Who will pick me up? Will I be ready in time? What will happen?
I guess only time will tell...
Friday, May 10, 2002 :::
Couple of things.
Internet came back up recently. Ben down since 10 min after my last post.
BTW, Its Prince, not Price. Typo.
Linsdey "asked" me if i would like to join her in going to church (which happens to meet at my school). I accepted, and She called me earlier (i gave her my #), askign where I lived. I gave it to her (Hell no i aint gonna tell everyone in lala land).
Drop the E in Cheetos. I added (cheetoes) the E accidently.
The "Machine" is the bottle coke machine. In my school.
Wow, This whole post is pretty muich corrections. See how much typos I can make in one post? I sorta rushed...
Might as well post while the internets still up
Hmm... What happened?
I checkend out askeign the girls name (see below)
Im listenign to Cream by Price.
And lindsey finally asked me again. I accepted.
Brents goign too, but just more conversation for me =).
Hey, its something to do on mother's day.
I ate cheetoes for lunch.
And the machine took my friends change, so i borred a paper clip and tried to un-jam the liek 10 quarters in there. No luck.
What else is there to say...
I had to mow the lawn when I got home today.
Thats about it.
Thursday, May 09, 2002 ::: HOB.com : House of Blues online I usually erase the link, but go to this site if you like music. theres somethign there for you.
for more music, go to
Live 365.
Okay, onto me.
Anyone know what to do in thios situation?
I found a girl. she recently started appealing to me, as I see her every day. I am in honors english, and she is across the hall in GT, at the same time. I guess you could call her goth looking, but I prefer to refrence her to my totally-drawn character, Ayla.
On ayla, I used a very new hair style. It goes down right past the bottom earlobe, and is long, but does not reach the shoulders, and is worn straight, not curved out like gen-x does it. (Generation X, the twenty-somethings)
I think she continusuly tries to talk to me, because today I found myself walkign next to her, and while I was beign a little loud to my friends, i saw her lips moving. I think she was talking to me, because She was against the wall lined up with me.
And again, earlier this month, a jerk came up and i think pushed me, but after that we stared at eachother like "what was that?", of which she is the second (The first is Merideth, Maggie's friend, sits next to me at lunch, dont know her).
Not exactly what i'd call a perfect face or body either, but she still appeals to me.
Only one problem. I dotn know her name, its not on the folder she carries, and Im a little chickenshit so I cant ask, and If i try all that coems out is probibly nothing.
What would you do if you were me? And yes, ive attempted suiocide twice.
I said id be outright, right?
Oh yeah, EOC (Standerized End Of Course for Algebra) was today. I finished early.
well thats all that happened today.
Any volenteers for getting me laid?
Wednesday, May 08, 2002 :::
I dont got much to talk about today..
I think that the only reason i get up and go to school now is to talk to Lindsey. Shes got a plethora of information and i've only squeezed the lemon once.
At this point I will remid you that this contains many typos, all on accident.
Should I reveal to the world about this plethora? No, but I will say that Ive been keeping a secret from her. She knows that I play the Cello, and she might recall that I sometimes play on the keyboard. But, she does not know that I can play the flute also. Big secret, eh?
I really need to keep in touch with all the people I met, mainly Lindsey, because I really want more info. Maybe I might get in contact with Heather also =)
Let me think...
I'm writing a story. I have most of it written (okay, not much is written, but I have typerd only a bit of the written part, 7 of 27 pages). I also drew pictures of all the main characters, their names are Kazamae, Miku, Miyu, and Ayla (First 3 I made up, Ayla I got from the kick ass song, Ayla Part II). I have yet to draw the bad guys, Spike and Jim (Names taken from Cowboy Bebop and Outlaw Star, respecivly). I might upload the images soon.
On the back opf the images is a short into to each character and summarizes the part of the story where they came in.
Hmm... What else should I write about.
Someone online commented that I like alot of girls. I will dedicate this part to naming them.
Kathrine is by far my longest love (by my heart, not physical relationshjip, of which Ive had none), standing since late 7th grade and goign strong.
Lauren comes in probibly last, but Ill name her because I asked her out in 6th grade.
Kelly, in one of my classes this year, is a friend of the above two, and I like her too.
Thiose are the 3 i can name and not get my ass kicked for. I'd name Lindsey, but I just like talking, If i got in a relationship, Im afraid I'd hurt her (phisically), because she is not exactly very strong.
I also found out she is interested in swimming. If i wasnt so damn fat, I'd probibly race her, because Im pretty fast myself in the water. Im also not very slow on land, but I need to keep these skills up or i will lose them like I am my stregnth.
Im thinking that I will dedicate every windsday and saturday morning to excercising. Wednesday from 9 to 2 I will work out in my gym, and If i get bored maybe run. I will swin when I get bored or my mom leaves for the store. And, I will run every saturday morning and wednesday if I so choose.
Reminder: you can print this if you do not spend plethoras of time at the computer surfing pages.
I love the word plethora
Monday, May 06, 2002 :::
Finally! I get to speak!
Well, my day sucked.
The first event that happened was sorta evolutionary.
I commented that somethign was as confusing as the bible, which I discovered yesterday was pretty confusing. I then got into some bible talk with Lindsey and Brent, and found out NOT to read the old testament first. I think I'll finish the book of genesis before moving to the new testament, though.
That lead to this. She said it would be easier if I just went to church, but I dont. So, she invited me to hers, which meets in the school every sunday. I told her I'll think about it, and after thinking, I think i'll go.
The second event, again, happened in english. Zach commented that "I am one of them", meaning a pop, as my teacher thought I was more of a silent nerdy person (after all, my research paper IS on computers).
And, I just peeled my fingernail. Thats about as eventful as my day got. Boring everyday grind. ugh.
Sunday, May 05, 2002 :::
I need to kick road runner's ass. Its supposed to be posted at 8:30 pm 5/5/02
Heh. I saw spiderman. AWESOME MOVIE!!! Here is my full review:
Peter Parker starts out on a field trip. While taking pictures "for the school newspaper" of the girl he likes, Mary Jane, or MJ, a spider drops down on him. The spider is red and blue with black legs, and bites him. After he is bitten, he looks down at the critter. He then goes home, and wakes up the next mornign and finds out three new tings that day.
He is much stronger, I mean like The Rock strong. and of couse, when you get stronger (legs), you get faster by default.
He can see without his glasses.
And, durign the day, he beats up a bully, BADLY, and runs off and discovers his spidy powers.
Thats my review. But... What did I learn from it?
Well, I liked the part where he got stronger, then beat up the bully. He met MJ later, and they talked. That is the exact point in the movie when they start liking each other-
Which brings me to my point. If only I could initate a CONVERSATION. With ANYBODY I like. Fuck, I'm so desprate at this point, I'll take anybody I dont think is ugly.
Which brings me back the that prank phone call. Someone called me one thurday afternoon last april, and claimed to be "Liz Ray", the ONE person I dont know at all from all my classes, particularly english. How did I come across this being a "Prank", If i didnt know her? Well, judging by myself, I know that you can know alot about someone who doesnt know much about you (Katherine in my case), and yet they dont know. I came acoss it by doing what I do, stare.
That day I was a particular loudmouth, anyone who didnt know about me found out that day. Two people, Josh and Zach released the computer knolege out of me. they asked me pretty much everythign they could to get it out in the open that I know alot about computers. So I thought, maybe she wants to know what I know? Not so. Like I brought up, I stare. If she was like me, she would stare at me all day, mainly because she was practically right acroos the room from her. We locked eyes only once, and Im pretty sure it was her intuition that brought it about. She immeadiately looked down like I was just a normal person. I have strong intuition about things like that, So I know, she has no feelings for me. Me being a nutcase, Its easy to tell.
Back to old spidy. I learned that once day, If you just be yourself and help people out, The more dominant person will admit the love. Its too bad Peter refused. But he had a good cause. Being his like of "work", a girlfriend would just get in his way. I would never refuse though. The one thing I promised myself before the dance was that I would not turn down ANYONE who offered me to dance, because I knew that I would be following some girl and only wanting her to dance with me. Heh, I was right. But, I accepted the whopping one offer. AND I got the girl I wanted to dance with. DOUBLE SCORE!
That goes back to life. I will not turn down any offers from girls to go on dates, except for the obvious people I would *NEVER* go out with. Extremely fat girls ( I dont give bout a lil fat, but if yer bellys out to yer boobs, no way), and the ugly or obvious jerks.
So, If yer a girl, and reading this, just ask me out! I PROMISE I'll accept!
DAMN INTERNET! Supposed to read 12:30 PM on sunday, May 5th, 2002
I talk about Heather alot. Or at least I will. Let me get this straight.
I think I like her. Which comes weird because the three others I like have dark
hair and dark eyes like me (Namely Katherine, Kelly, And Lauren). I just got done mowing
the lawn, maybe I should take a shower. Hmm.... damn I really need a girlfriend, or at
least some girl to bang. Im going to go see SpiderMan!!! (The movie)
You know, anything to get laid.
The internet went back off!
This was SUPPOSED to be posted at 10:00 AM on Sunday, May 5th, 2002.
Yeah, I know, posting early in the morning is awkward, because I just woke up.
But I have to clarify some things that happened yesterday, mainly for MY memory.
Its Heather Hewlett, as I believe you spell her last name. I've recently "noticed" her.
And, about the CN shows, I sorta skipped on what happened.
On Yuyu Hakusho, Yuskae Urameshi defeated the big guy with the helmet by placing a cigarette
on his belt. Then he had to fight again, in the semi-finals, and won by
slipping into a swamp and letting the explosive shurikens fly into the other guy. Ouch.
On Cowboy Bebop, they found out that the "person" making the land carvigns with the
satallites was really an old and forgotten weather satallite. Then they picked up
Edward, and didnt get a reward for discoverign the satellite since bountys are only for
humans and animals, not computers.
Pilot candidate is explained below.
I didnt watch Gundam 0083, so dont ask me what happened =)
On Outlaw star, All i remember is that Gene entered the space race with Fred as his
sponsor. Then, at the pre-race party, he met Ayesha, the waitress.
And on Tenchi Muyo, Ryoko was cloned by the little blobs and kept getting shy around
Tenchi. Yup, thats pretty much it. Oh, and Ryo-ohki ate a carrot.
You know, anything to get laid.
Saturday, May 04, 2002 :::
Hello, blog. My life was interesting today. Lets start at the begining.
Well, being saturday, I got up. It was about 8 am, and I just got up.
I got on the computer, and saw it was still fragmented after defragging all night.
I went and deleted some files, mainly unfinished video downloads. ]
That managed to free up 8 gigs! That puts me at 16 gigs in windows, about 1 in linux.
Thats why I want a new HD. Well, I watched VH1 til then. It was the top 30 countdown,
and then somethign else. I ate oatmeal. At about 1, I got myself a sandwich, and booted linux.
I came to blogger.com to satisfy my blogging needs, and then i got disconnected.
So, I watched TV. And Watched. and watched. all top 90 videos of the 90's.
So, at about 7, Bevis and butthead do america came on. I watched that.
I then decided to pull out my keyboard and play a bit. So I did.
Thats when my dad yells at me, "TODD! GET DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW!",
Scared I run down there, and have to hold up a ceiling fan while he placed the plate.
After that, my back hurt like crazy. Guess im not so strong after all.
Then, I ate dinner. Uneventful. After that though, I got to thinking,
What if my internet doesnt come back on?
So, i figured, this would be a great time to FINALLY ask a girl out, you know,
someone to talk to. I was thinkign of ever-so-silent blone Heather, and still sorta am =)
Then, Adult Swim came on. Cartoon network. I love it. Yuyu Hakusho kicks ass.
Cowboy Bebop kicks ass, even for the third time. Then Candidate for Goddess (pilot) came on.
I love it. Its such a girl show, but I love it. I got to thinking, that burnett with the glasses.
She's so sad, really worried about the ex-overdose her candidate had. I just wanted to jump in and tell her it would be alright, like that other guy tried.
Least he tried. Oh well. Then I got to thiniing as the credits came on, "I really want to draw that girl".
So, now, I REALLY WANT TO LEARN HOW TO DRAW (better). Any volenteers to help?
And now, Mobile Suit Gundam 0083 is on. Its boring to me.
I also like Outlaw Star, and I espically like the origional Tenchi Muyo (and Universe, but not so much for the tokyo series). I still think I need to ask someone out, but.. how? I mean, my main "candidate" was, WAS, Katherine, but come to think of it, I probibly have 0-1% chance of her accepting, that picky... (edit)
Well, theres an overview of my day.
You know, anything to get laid.
